“I had no idea they were in trouble.” Gervais says.
“I thought it was weird Birch was out last night without Blue.” George says.
“Yeah Birch was dancing with everyone, acting like he was single.” Dylan says.
“Thursday they helped me stand up to Curtis and they left together.” Gervais says.
“This food is amazing. New in house chef.” Andy grins shoveling it in.
“It is good. DeShawn come eat, Gervais made lobster.” Robin says as DeShawn comes in.
“Try and stop me. wow boy lobster, taters and green beans, you trying to seduce me?” DeShawn asks.
“Good to know how.” Gervais beams.
“This is really good. Really good. Feels like we have Gervais back. Post dinner zombie fight?’ Robin asks.
“For sure. All of us. It’s been ages.” Gervais says.
“I’m in. I feel an all-nighter coming on.” DeShawn says and Robin, George and Gervais beam as Dylan rolls his eyes.
Spence and Antonio come in later from work and rehearsal and eat the minimal leftovers. Spence has brought the junk requested by Andy to help them get through a night of battle. The 8 of them have a great time and forget the drama from earlier in the evening.
Earlier after a brief shouting match Blue followed Birch to the studio.
“Why are you not talking to me?” Blue asks.
“Why didn’t you come home last night?” Birch asked.
“I stayed home last night. I called and told you I needed to get my study done and I needed some space to think.” Blue says.
“But instead you spent the night with Tyler in tiny swimwear.” Birch says.
“You went to the club, I doubt you were in a burka. It was nice for me to hang out with people not part of Gervais drama. I’m in college and I am sick of not being allowed to have fun. I’m sick of having to take care of everything for everyone.” Blue snaps.
“We could have had fun together but you chose your fuck buddy instead. I am sick of only getting the drama and picking up the pieces. I want to relax and have fun too.” Birch shouts.
“Well I didn’t want to have you around, I needed space to process. You hurt me thursday night and yet again I’m the one in the wrong. I am always the one in the wrong and I am sick of it. All I do is try and try and try to be perfect to be everything you need and I was okay with that because I thought we had something. I thought this relationship was going somewhere. I thought we were moving in together, making a home together but I got it wrong. I needed to space to see if I wanted to make this much effort for something that isn’t going anywhere. Stupid thing is I thought you were worth it but it was too late, you cut me off. Gave me the silent treatment, were rude to my friends and wouldn’t even be in the same room as me. You’re punishing me for being hurt.” Blue says drained.
“We never had the moving in conversation. Not as boyfriends. I’m taking a room in your house. I am sick of being made to feel like a prostitute. That I have to suck up the drama because you’re bankrolling me. You’re just a rich boy who thinks he can buy love.” Birch shouts.
Blue can’t respond, He had no idea that was how Birch saw things. He feels sick and can’t get out of there fast enough.
He gets back to the dorm no idea how he drove because he can’t see through the tears. He goes into the restroom and splashes water on his face and looks in the mirror. He doesn’t need this kind of relationship.
He knows that he has got it wrong again that his communication failed him and that he needs a new way to deal with hurt that doesn’t alienate his boyfriends. But Birch doesn’t deserve all the effort he makes. Yes his life is full of drama but Birch knew that. Yes he is rich but Birch knew that too.
Blue looks at himself in the mirror, eyes red, nose running and tells himself.
“You deserve more.”
“Yes you do.” Tyler says coming in.
I m a mess.” Blue says.
“I don’t think he’s worth the tears. You’re the sexiest mofo on campus. No guy should make you feel this bad, not when you can click your fingers and replace him. He should always be on his knees worshipping you.” Tyler says.
“I gave it all I had. I thought it was going one way and he didn’t. The funny thing is he was telling me he loved me from the start, like the first day and I held back and here I am the broken hearted mess.” Blue says.
“You’re bruised but not broken Blue. Come on I have some ice cream upstairs. Lets go eat and watch chick flicks and cry it out.” Tyler says.
“Thanks. I love ice cream.” Blue says.
“I know.” Tyler smiles.
On Sunday afternoon Andy heads over to see Magnus. He slept all morning after the gaming night and is wanting some loving.
“How was the opera?” Andy asks.
“Amazing, I had a great night. How was dinner?” Magnus asks.
“A disaster at the start. Blue and Birch imploded. But then we had a great time, great food and a major round of zombies. No drama, no couples, just boys playing games and talking shit. It was perfect.” Andy says.
“Blue and Birch are done?” Magnus asks shocked.
“I have no idea. They arrived separately and Birch was a total dick. I mean major douche. Stormed off, Blue apologized and ran after him it was really sad. And weird, I never get why guys treat Blue like that. He’s a really great guy and yet his boyfriends always turn on him.” Andy sighs.
“I won’t turn on you. You’re too delicious.” Magnus says kissing Andy.
“Mmrnmm you taste good too,” Andy grins,
“I’m ready. Uh I’m prepared and ready.” Magnus says.
“Really? You sure you want it to be me?” Andy asks flattered.
“I do. I really, really do.” Magnus says.
Andy unwraps Magnus slowly, kissing every piece of skin as he removes each piece of clothing. Magnus beams at the attention.
“Now you?” Magnus asks.
“Want to see some skin?” Andy laughs.
“Want to kiss some.” Magnus grins.
“I’m going to go really slow, just tell me if it hurts too much or you need me to stop okay?” Andy asks.
“I trust you.” Magnus says.
“Good but I can’t make things better if you don’t tell me when things are wrong.” Andy says.
“Okay. Thanks Andy.” Magnus says and pulls him into a deep, deep kiss.
Andy looks at the prize that Magnus is and sighs. So sexy and handsome. He feels really lucky.
Andy kisses Magnus all over gently again, running his hands over his body and trying to get Magnus to relax. Magnus feels so good. He really likes Andy, finds him super sexy and really caring.
“I love this thick cock.” Andy says taking Magnus in his mouth.
“Oh baby that’s so good.” Magnus gasps.
Andy continues to suck bringing Magnus close to the edge before lifting his legs and diving at his as. Magnus is a delight, high round globes that Andy burries his face between.
Andy spends a long time exploring with his tongue and then fingers. Magnus who has played with himself a fair amount, especially this week feels confident he’s really ready.
Andy lubes him and stretches him and enjoys the sights of those glorious globes.
“Ready?” Andy asks with 2 fingers in.
“I fucking need it. Oh Andy give me you cock. Please.” Magnus says.
Even a small amount of begging gets Andy rock hard.
Andy wraps up add more lube and shuffles Magnus to the edge of the bed and swings his ankles up to his shoulders. Another quick finger to get Magnus gasping in a good way and Andy lines himself up slowly.
This is different to with Spence where they were both mostly clueless and with Deke where he knew the relationship wasn’t going anywhere. He is beginning to really care for Magnus and wants everything to be perfect.
Magnus takes Andy’s head without too much effort he’s ready and relaxed. He tenses as Andy starts to slowly, slowly give more. Andy leans forward and kisses Magnus deeply and murmurs how well he’s doing. Magnus is scared and turned on and impatient and cautious all at once.
Andy slowly begins to move in and out just a third to half and Magnus stares at him a little uncomfortable a lot happy.
“I need more.” Magnus says and Andy grins and gently eases a little more.
Keeping it slow and loving Andy kisses Magnus and stands back again.
“Fuck you feel amazing. You’re a perfect fit.” Andy grins loving how Magnus feels.
Andy kisses Magnus ankles and feet and moves in deeply. Magnus gasps and groans in sheer delight as Andy moves his legs and hits his most pleasurable zone with each stroke. It is almost too much to take.
“Oh Andy. Fuck. Babe. Fuck.” Magnus gasps.
“Too much?” Andy teases going super slow again.
“Give me. Give it me.” Magnus says and Andy joins him lost in the moment, no more holding back just uninhibited love making.
Magnus gasps with joy and delight at every movement. This is nothing like playing with toys. Andy enjoys every moment. This feels more special than anything before. Magnus is in shock when he cums, he hadn’t expected to and for all the pleasure he’s sad it’s over. He helps Andy finish and then kisses him greedily over and over.
“Well?” Andy asks with a grin. He had so much fun.
“I am going to be sore tomorrow but you were incredible.” Magnus says and Andy gently kisses his nose.
“Happy to set you on your path to true pleasure.” Andy says.
“I am mad at myself for holding back for so long but I’m really pleased it was with you. I trust you.” Magnus says.
“You make me feel great. I really like you, a lot.” Andy Says truthfully. Magnus makes him feel strong and desirable outside the bedroom and that is a big deal to him, He feels like Magnus wants to show him off and the feeling is mutual.
“I like you a lot too. Thanks for today, you didn’t make me feel stupid or inexperienced. It was perfect.” Magnus says.
“You have a delicious ass.” Andy grins and kisses Magnus.
They chill out in bed for a while just kissing and talking. With no one organizing Sunday dinner they can just relax. Magnus can’t stop starring at Andy in wonder. He can’t quite believe it has finally happened and that it was so good, it hurt but once he got there man it was good. Andy was so gentle and patient and loving.
“You okay?” Andy asks as Magnus eye tears up.
“Just feeling a bit soppy and so happy.” Magnus says.
“You’re so cute. You’re this super slick, super together guy with all these sophisticated interests and underneath all that you’re so sweet and sensitive. I love your contradictions.” Andy says.
“I love that I can show all my sides to you and you embrace me. I’m so used to hiding something.” Magnus says.
“With me you can be all of it. I like how you weren’t offended I didn’t want to go with you last night.” Andy says.
“We can’t be in to all the same things and different nights out give us something to talk about.” Magnus says.
“Sounds good.” Andy says and yawns.
“Nap then food?” Magnus asks.
“Oh my god are you starving? Did you not eat for a day?” Andy asks.
“Pretty much but a nap sounds good.” Magnus says giggling then yawning too.
On Sunday afternoon Tyler goes with Blue to retrieve his things from Birch’s studio.
“That was fast.” Birch says opening the door.
“I’m here as a friend. He didn’t want to come alone.” Tyler says rolling his eyes.
“Yeah right. Given him cheating on me with you broke us up it’s just a pathetic attempt to hurt me. Well I’ve moved on.” Birch says motioning the bed where Grant is sleeping.
“I didn’t cheat.” Blue says and starts picking up his things.
“Not for lack of trying on my part.” Tyler grins.
“You can keep the sheets.” Blue says and walks out quickly, hoping he has all the important stuff. He can’t get out fast enough.
“Well he clearly doesn’t waste time.” Tyler says.
“I thought Grant was a friend.” Blue sighs more disappointed than hurt.
“Birch has proved he wasn’t worth it.” Tyler says.
“Yeah. Single life for me.” Blue says.
“So in a week or so we can pick up our arrangement?” Tyler asks.
“Sure. Want to go to a movie now? I want to stuff my face with sugar in a dark room.” Blue laughs.
“Let’s go.” Tyler grins always happy to spend time with Blue.
As usual Blue cuts himself off from his friends and as usual they barely notice. None of them called him after the disastrous dinner to check he was okay and he takes that as a sign that they’re all on Birch and Grant’s side.
At yoga on Thursday Willow shows as usual for the advanced class but barely acknowledges Blue and can’t look him in the eye.
“Look I get you have to be on his side because he’s your brother but I really hope we can be friends when the dust settles.” Blue says between classes.
“I never took you for a cheat Blue. I can’t be friends with someone who would do that to my brother. Not given you knew what he went through with Joe.” Willow says.
“I see.” Blue says and turns away angry that Birch is spreading lies.
Fortunately Birch doesn’t show for yoga and so the classes proceed without drama. Blue leaves straight after not wanting to see Cheryl, knowing that she’ll be on Birch’s side too.
He eats alone in the dining hall a tasteless pasta before going up to the empty suite. It is eerie being there alone but he finds once his headphones are on he doesn’t mind and its nice not having to clean up after anyone else.
The following night he goes to climbing, but sees Grant laughing with Robin so he slips away quickly.
“Blue, wait.” Gervais calls running towards him.
“Hey Gervais, what’s up?” Blue asks cooly.
“You ran off before we could speak last night and you’re not hanging round now. What’s going on?” Gervais asks.
“Willow is mad at me and couldn’t face judgement from Cheryl for something t didn’t do. Then I saw Grant with Robin so thought it best to leave.” Blue says.
“I’m not going to the club if you want to hang out.” Gervais says.
“No thanks. You were the reason me and Birch broke up the first time and he couldn’t trust me. I’d be happy if I never saw you again, you’ve ruined my life. Always dragging me in to your drama, never letting me be happy. You’ve recovered from your illness, Justin is gone, Curtis is gone, we don’t live together anymore and we’ll be at different schools next semester. You can lose my number.” Blue says and walks away.
Gervais sits down on the grass stunned. He thought things were back on track with Blue. He can’t believe he had anything to do with Blue’s breakup and why did Blue not want to see Grant and Robin? Gervais tries to work out what he can do to make things right. Should he let Blue go? Can he live without him? Where is he even living?
Why did he not call him on Sunday? After gaming all night he slept most of the day and had been busy. He should have sent a text at least. To be honest he expected Blue to call and apologize for running off. He supposes that was the last thing on his mind if he’s been through a breakup.
Gervais walks back inside and grabs Andy.
“Have you spoken to Blue?” Gervais asks.
“No, I’ve been meaning to but I kind of got caught up in Magnus and thought it would be a bit mean to be putting my happiness in his face.” Andy says.
“He told me to get out his life again. Blamed me for his relationship issues. I don’t blame him I took up a lot of his time. I’m just sad because I thought things were back to normal.” Gervais says.
“His relationship falling apart wasn’t your fault. He cheated on Birch with Tyler.” Andy says.
“No way.” Gervais says.
“That’s what Grant says.” Andy shrugs.
On Sunday Gervais and George cook dinner again. George and Dylan are still happy and Magnus and Andy are totally loved up.
“Where’s Blue? I thought he was bringing dessert.” George says as they sit down.
“I doubt he’d come with me here.” Gervais says.
“Did no one ask him?” Robin asks.
“Oh fuck I was meant to.” Andy says hitting his head.
“How’s he doing?” Magnus asks.
“Not great, he’s lonely and depressed. I’m really worried about him.” DeShawn says to shocked faces.
“He spoke to you?” Spence asks.
“Unlike the rest of you I give a shit and check on my friends when they’ve been dumped.” DeShawn says.
“He doesn’t want to speak to me.” Gervais says.
“But the rest of you? Come on. Do any of you even know where he’s living?” DeShawn asks.
“He’s in the dorms.” Andy says confused.
“He’s in our old suite. Atone. Do you know how scary and creepy that is? How depressing? I begged him to come here, to go to a hotel, anything and he won’t move.” DeShawn says.
“It’s his choice. You can’t make everyone here feel responsible. He chose to cheat. He deserves what he gets.” Grant says.
“He didn’t cheat.” Antonio says.
“Yes he did. I know you’re friends with Tyler and want to defend him but he cheated.” Grant says.
“No he didn’t. I was with Tyler that night, he and Blue hung out and for sure he tried but Blue turned him and everyone else down. Tyler called me after Blue went to bed and I went over.” Antonio says.
“I said he wouldn’t have cheated on Birch.” Gervais says.
“You did.” Andy says feeling annoyed that he even believed it for a second.
“Thanks for seeking him out DeShawn. He tends to close himself off when he’s upset. He’ll be punishing himself over there, thinking it’s where he deserves to live.” Gervais says feeling sick that Blue is sleeping where Jesse was killed.
“He didn’t choose it. It was there or Elliot and Jesse’s old room. That was all housing could offer. He got it during that first breakup, when we were moving our stuff out he was planning to move back in.” DeShawn says.
“That’s weird even for Blue.” Spence says.
“It’s his life, his choice. He could have got a room with you guys but he insisted he was going to live with Birch. It’s not your fault he can’t keep a man.” Grant says.
“He couldn’t live here because I was here. He has a million great reasons not to be friends with me and to not have me in his life. It’s my fault.” Gervais says.
“And we chose you over him again which put us on rocky ground.” Andy says.
“We could hardly not have Gervais here after what happened. It should have been enough for Blue to put everything aside.” Robin says.
“Things change and friends move on.” Antonio says.
“He’s not moving on. He’s hiding away.” Andy says.
“Let’s go see him.” Spence says to Andy and Andy nods.
“Go on, you’ll not rest until you’ve spoken to him.” Magnus says.
“Did you have any idea?” Andy asks.
“None. I was confused about the break up. Then we all accepted Birch’s version from Grant. Only Deshawn bothered to reach out,” Spence says shaking his head.
“We all suck. Again.” Andy says.
“You okay that I’ll be living with Magnus this summer? I’m taking Grant’s room while he’s in Australia.” Spence says.
“Yup. He’ll be working 14 hour days at that law firm. You’ll be able to reassure me he’s still alive.” Andy laughs.
“I’m glad you two got together. I should be jealous as but you are good together.” Spence says.
“He’s not how I expected. Its nice. Maybe posh boys are my type after all.” Andy laughs.
“They are not mine.” Spence says.
“You and DeShawn still not something?” Andy asks.
“Just friends who mate.” Spence grins.
“You don’t want more?” Andy asks.
“Nah.” Spence says.
The two knock nervously on the door of the suite feeling weird.
“Hey guys come in.” Blue says coldly and they walk into the near empty suite.
“We have your TV.” Spence says embarrassed.
“I know. I was here when you took it along with all my baking things.” Blue says.
“Why didn’t you stop us?” Andy asks.
“I was embarrassed to be living here. That I’d messed up with Birch. I knew you’d be uncomfortable and pressure me into living with you which would have been worse.” Blue says.
“Why?” Spence asks.
“Birch and I split the first time because of Gervais.” Blue says.
“Right. I remember. What happened this time?” Andy asks.
“We were moving at different speeds.” Blue shrugs.
“And there is no chance of getting back together?” Spence asks.
“No way.” Blue says firmly.
“And you won’t come back with us?” Andy asks.
“No. I’m fine here. It’s easier to be at school, its almost finals.” Blue says.
“Do you want me to stay?” Spence asks.
“No. Look it was nice of you to come by but its too late. You believed I’d cheated on him for a week without even asking for my side. I don’t need friends like you.” Blue says standing up and surprising Spence and Andy that he knew what they’d thought.
“Come on Blue you can’t be mad at us for not calling when you didn’t.” Andy says.
“Maybe, but I think if one of you had run out on dinner after their boyfriend in floods of tears I would have called over and over to check you were okay. You guys just don’t care about me as much as I do about you. So I’m done, moving on.” Blue says sending a punch to their hearts.
“We’re family. You don’t move on from family.” Andy says.
“Because our families are entwined, maybe you could respect my feelings and leave rather than argue.” Blue says moving back towards the door.
“When you’re the one left with no friends, maybe you are to blame.” Spence says.
“I know. I get that I’m only worth being around when you need something. I’m just not fun or interesting or nice enough to get the same in return. It is all my own fault for being shite.” Blue says sarcastically.
“We can’t drop everything for you. We have lives.” Spence says.
“Oh I know, I’m too much drama. I’ve been told all this already. Carry on, stick the boot in some more. I can take it. Apparently I have to take everything and I’m never allowed to complain or ask for anything in return and be grateful for scraps. So go. If I’m too much hassle to be friends with then you should be glad I’m setting you free.” Blue says.
“We came here because we were concerned. Not to fight. Please Blue be sensible.” Andy says.
“I am being sensible. I need some new friends. It isn’t just that you weren’t there, you took his side. You gossiped about me and you spread rumors. You made me look like the bad guy. Because it came from you people believed it.” Blue shouts exasperated.
“Come on Andy lets go. This was a waste of time.” Spence says.
“No, you go. I’m not leaving while he’s this upset. I was the one who told everyone he cheated and I need to fix this. He’s right if we had been a mess like he was last week he’d have made sure we were okay.” Andy says full of remorse.
“Andy there is no fixing this. Not this time.” Blue says quietly, totally heartbroken.