“Where are you going?” Blue asks Will as he steps out the bedroom.
“I need to jerk of before going to bed with you. So I can keep some sort of self-control.” Will says hoping for an invitation.
“I’m sorry, its shit. Today has been really lovely. I adore being with you. You take this bed I’ll go in the spare room.” Blue says.
“Blue, no I don’t want that.” Will says but Blue has gone.
Blue beats himself up all night. He knows he shouldn’t have been so affectionate with Will. He really likes him and they have such a strong attraction. He shouldn’t be leading him on. Feels so nice to have a hand to hold though and a warm body to wake up to.
Blue realizes just how lonely he’s feeling, even though everyone is friends again. No one wants to live with him and no one needs him. He’s back to being the group chef. Blue grumbles to himself, full of self-pity. He misses Birch. He misses having Robin or Gervais to share a bed with. He misses being there for Andy and Spence. Even momma stayed with Andy and Chris rather than him when she was here. He feels useless and passed over.
He goes downstairs early to have breakfast and Chris is there with his bags packed.
“I’m going to go back to school early. I can stay with some teammates and train with them. This is just too hard, for both of us.” Will says and Blue nods defeated.
He helps Will pack up his car and shakes his hand, not able to speak, he’s so miserable. He messed up and so another man has left him. He doesn’t deserve anyone.
Blue spends the day moping, barely moving from the sofa. He tries to snap out of it, has a shower and goes to see Gervais, hoping Spence will be at work. He knocks and opens the front door and hears the sounds of Gervais having sex. And the even more distinct sound of Spence cumming.
Blue closes the door and runs home. Locking his doors. He can’t face anyone. Blue can’t be with Will but Spence can be with Gervais? Seems wildly unfair to Blue and shows him just how little even his closest friends think of him.
He can’t stay here. He can’t stay here.
On Saturday morning the garden things are delivered for Andy. He and Chris take through what they need for their place to the back and head over to Blue’s. They knock but there is no answer. No cars are there. Andy looks around the street and sees Blue’s car is outside his house, how had he walked passed it earlier. Was it there yesterday? He scratches his head.
“When did you last talk to Blue?” Andy asks Chris.
“Monday when we had soup.” Chris says.
“No texts, no calls?” Andy asks.
“No. Nothing. Did you not tell him we were doing the garden today?” Chris asks.
“I texted him to remind him last night but he didn’t reply.” Andy says.
Chris looks through the window of the house.
“Good morning, are you my first couple?” A woman asks behind them.
“Sorry?” Chris asks confused,
“Are you my first couple coming to see the house?” The woman asks.
“It’s my brother’s house. Do you have the right place?” Chris asks confused.
“Ah, oh dear, I guess he hasn’t told you he’s selling up.” The woman says.
“You’re a realtor?” Andy asks shocked. Where the hell is Blue?
“I’ll go call momma. Go see if Gervais or Robin know anything.” Chris says worried.
Andy runs up the street and bangs on Spence’s door and then on to Robin’s and does the same. Calling Spence on his phone as he does it.
“It’s too early, what’s up?” Robin says coming out.
“When did you last see Blue?” Andy asks agitated.
“Uh not all week. We went out Sunday, I messaged him but no reply and I’ve been kind Of snowed in with homework already. What’s wrong?” Robin asks.
“He’s gone, his house is empty and a realtor is showing people round.” Andy says.
“What the fuck.” Robin says shocked and calling Blue’s phone.
“I don’t know what to do. Chris is calling Clara.” Andy says.
“Number not in use.” Robin says chilled that his best friend has left without a word.
“What’s going on?” Spence asks coming out in his shorts and flip flops with Gervais, both clearly just out of bed.
“Blue has gone.” Robin says.
“What do you mean gone?” Gervais asks worried.
“What about Will? Are they together?” Spence asks.
“Can you call him? Maybe they are.” Andy says brightening.
“Why don’t you all come in to mine and we’ll go over everything.” Robin says.
“I’ll go get Chris.” Andy says.
“Clara wasn’t in.” Chris says running up.
“Spence is calling Will, maybe he followed him to school.” Andy says.
“Oh that make sense. Though he could have leased the house, no need to sell it.” Chris says.
“If he needs the money maybe he is in trouble.” Andy says worriedly.
“He would come to us if he was in trouble. Come on let’s go and see what the others have found out. Then we have to get this stuff out back.” Chris says.
“Will left on Tuesday morning. He and Blue agreed it was too difficult to be around each other and not together. He spoke to him Tuesday night once he was settled and said Blue seemed down but as Will was feeling shit himself he didn’t think anything of it.” Spence says.
“It’s your fault. You stopping them being happy. He had put his car keys in my mailbox saying he hoped I enjoyed the freedom. Do you think we need to call the police? Is he a missing person? Do you think he’s suicidal?” Andy asks in increasing panic.
“He wouldn’t be selling the house if it was.” Robin says.
“I’ll call Cheryl.” Gervais says trying to breathe.
“He did talk to me before he left. He will call me once a month to let me know he’s safe and that is all I know.” Cheryl says.
“He didn’t say why?” Gervais asks.
“No, he seemed calm. He said he was wasting his time in college and just wanted to get started on his life.” Cheryl says.
“Please ask him to call me when you speak to him.” Gervais pleads.
“Of course. He’s sensible. Try not to worry too much, I am sure he’ll call you when he’s ready.” Cheryl says.
Once Blue got over the immediate shock of Gervais and Spence’s betrayal he went into practical mode and started planning his departure. Blue brought up his accounts and worked out his financial position. He fired up his school portal and withdrew, Clara will only lose the small deposit as classes haven’t started.
He spent the week returning and selling most of the items from the house, bought a different car, changed his phone number and found a realtor for the house. The other new houses have all been sold and she seemed to think Blue’s would be easy to sell.
He feels a little guilty taking advantage of Clara’s money but she was foolish enough to buy him two fancy houses. He won’t sell the other unless he has to but he will be asking for rent from next semester.
He plans to get away, find some harvest work to do and when the house is sold buy a smallholding and begin his life. He’s tired of the fakeness of his friends. He’s tired of being heartbroken. He needs new friends and a fresh new start.
Cheryl helped him get some letters of recommendation from yoga students and he hopes to teach a little once he’s settled.
As he drives across country he tries to put all thoughts of his friends and family out of his mind. He’s on his own now and never going back.
“I don’t understand why he didn’t talk to me. Surely Will leaving wasn’t the only trigger.” Robin says once Gervais relays the news from Cheryl.
“No one has seen him since Will left? It must have been that.” Chris says.
“He barely knew Will. He didn’t run off when he broke up with George or Birch or Gervais.” Spence says.
“He was really in to Will, they were falling for each other, it was really cute. I can see him going away for a few days to clear his head, I can’t see him selling up not without talking to any of us.” Robin
“Why wasn’t he with this Will guy? What was the big deal?” DeShawn asks.
“Spence asked him not to.” Gervais says trying to think of anything Blue has ever said about his future plans that might give a clue to where he is.
“He didn’t tell anyone he was going, other than Cheryl and he’s not telling her where he is. We need to respect that he doesn’t want to speak to any of us and doesn’t want to be found.” George says.
Robin’s face crumples. He can’t believe he didn’t make the time to see him at all this week. He thought he was having a love in with Will and that was why he didn’t respond to messages.
“We should never have let him live alone.” Robin says quietly.
“Uh I did say that George and Dylan should live with him.” Bea says.
“That would have been a nightmare for him. It should have been me.” Gervais says quietly.
“He’s always done this, run away. He’s a drama queen who runs away from his problems. I don’t know if it was Will or his new school or something else but we can’t do anything now. We might as well get on with life and wait for the eviction notice when he runs out of cash and needs to sell our place.” Dylan says.
The guys filter home. Robin agrees to let Andy and Chris put the second vegetable plot into his place and along with Gervais the 4 spend the day working on it.
“Can I move back in with you? I don’t want to be around Spence right now. I feel like if he had let things happen with Blue and Will then he’d be here.” Gervais says.
“But you’d be leaving Spence alone.” Andy says.
“He chose not to live with DeShawn and Magnus. I get that he is in a bad place but I have worked really hard for the last few months to get myself into a good place and I don’t want his selfish actions to undo all that. Robin and I have to study together most nights any way our new classes are rock hard.” Gervais rants.
“Gervais and I were supposed to live together and we want to. Frankly I need the support and I know G does too. It’s like living alone being with DeShawn and Magnus anyway.” Robin says firmly.
“I had sex with Spence. I worry Spence told Blue and that’s why Blue left. I’m pushing all my anger at myself on to Spence.” Gervais admits in bed later that night.
“Why would you do that?” Robin asks.
“We were lonely and horny.” Gervais says.
“Spence would not have told Blue. If he had Blue would have told me, he would have come to me. I worry that it’s my fault. I can think of reasons he wouldn’t tell any of you guys he was going but not me. I might sound arrogant but it’s true we were as close as we’ve ever been.” Robin says.
“You’ve done nothing wrong.” Gervais says.
“How could you and Spence? I mean why would Spence be with you after telling Blue he couldn’t have Will. That was cold. From both of you.” Robin says.
“I didn’t think of him. I never do when I want something.” Gervais admits.
“I told him over the summer that the two of you could never happen, not really, after Chris and he would never answer. Those things you did, the Chocolates at the hotel, the movies and headphones. He loved all that. I thought that you’d be waiting at the airport when we got back with a bouquet of roses and a ring. I think he thought you’d be there. Maybe he has realized you’ll never happen, given how you pushed him at Will. Maybe he had to get away from you, from disappointment.” Robin says.
“Do you hate me?” Gervais asks worried he’s losing Robin too.
“No. I think you were stupid to sleep with Spence but I get the loneliness and the other. In the privacy of your home no one would know. I’m more mad at Spence than you. You’re not the one who stopped Blue from going after a good thing. You encouraged him and you were being a really good friend. I can see how hard you’ve worked and knowing it was to get your friend back and not your boyfriend actually makes me appreciate your actions even more.” Robin says.
“I want him back of course I do but I know I am a year or 5 from ready. I need to be settled in my life and stable in my head before I can be with him. He needs to grow up too, to learn how to not smother me and to let me make my mistakes.” Gervais says.
“I guess that is what he’s doing. I’m scared to death but also I am really proud of him. Shows some guts selling the house Clara gave him and taking off.” Robin says.
“Yeah, we’ve all been toxic for him. Good for him for doing what he needs to. I’m proud of him too. I wish he’d shared his feelings but maybe he didn’t want us to talk him out of it.” Gervais says.
“He trusts Cheryl, and we trust Cheryl. She’ll let us know if she thinks he’s in trouble. Hell you can afford a PI to track him down if it comes to it.” Robin says.
“I am going to buy his house. He loved it, he made it a home instantly, the kitchen is to his spec and the studio he made into a yoga room so easily. I’ll stay here with you if that’s okay and lease it out or something. Damn he invited me to do yoga there and I didn’t go. If I had gone…” Gervais lets it hang in the air.
“He chose to go. Lets not beat ourselves up over what we could have done. He made his choice.” Robin says almost to himself.
“He made his choice. Yeah you don’t sell a house on a whim.” Gervais says.
“You mean it about buying it?” Robin asks.
“Yeah. Why not? It’s a beautiful house.” Gervais says.
“Cool.” Robin says and they snuggle together and sleep, worried but happy to be facing it together.
Both Robin and Gervais are loving their new school and while they are snowed under with work they both appreciate that they are learning a lot and they can see the two years at their first school were not a waste, they don’t feel behind and their motivation lifts them above some of the other students.
They join a gaming club together and there is a climbing club which the figure will be good to meet people and keep active in a way they love. Walking through the sports center to the climbing wall Robin is distracted by a cheer squad working out in one of the studios.
“We’re just warming up for tryouts. You guys should come in and see what we’re about.” A girl says noticing Robin’s interest.
“Will you come with me?” Robin asks feeling unusually shy.
“For sure. I’d love to see what you looked like cheering.” Gervais says with a grin.
They both fill out the forms and join in the warm up. Gervais figures it’ll be a laugh and he’ll be less conspicuous joining in than watching.
“You are both so cute. Did you cheer in highschool?” Another girl asks.
“I did, Gervais is a beginner. I’m Robin.” Robin says grinning.
“I’m Carlotta. Lottie. Are you freshmen?” Lottie asks.
“No we’re juniors but we just transferred here.” Gervais says.
“Are you a couple?” Lottie asks.
“No, we share a place and are good friends.” Robin says.
“Well we are happy you are here.” Lottie says.
The warm up turns into the first round of tryouts, basic choreography and Gervais soon relaxes seeing others are far worse than he is, he copies Robin who is doing a great job. A few people are cut and they are put into smaller groups.
Gervais and Robin seem to pass each challenge. Robin’s tumbling is rusty but he manages what is asked and while Gervais cannot complete the pass the flips that he has learnt from Ocean are enough to show promise.
“Gervais you best sit this round out as you are not trained in stunts.” Lottie says and he grins and takes a chair with a couple of others who also opt to sit this round out.
Gervais sits and watches the squad do their thing, Robin looks like he’s always been part of the team and is utterly solid as a base. As they finish up a couple of the bigger guys ask Robin if he can fly and they set up a stunt with him. Gervais can hardly bear to look but they execute safely and Robin is exhilarated.
“We want both of you, I’m Jeremy by the way.” Jeremy says introducing himself.
“Yeah two smaller guys would give us some balance. Gervais you’d have a lot to learn but you’re light and flexible. We all think you can.” Lottie says.
“We’d love to.” Gervais says without asking Robin.
“Really?” Robin asks.
“You love this, and you’re amazing and I need a new challenge. Lets do it.” Gervais says and Robin grins.
“You heard him we’re in. I can work With Gervais on the basics but you’ve seen his natural talent.” Robin says.
They go out to dinner as a group. There are 5 new girls who were selected and the rest were in the squad before. Gervais feels pretty good that he held his own against the experienced people.
“You were amazing out there. Think you need to do some yoga with me in the mornings though, but I know you love your sleep.” Gervais says at home later.
“I loved every second and I am so proud of you joining in. wow babe your shyness all gone and you went for it.” Robin grins.
“I know. Hey I loved climbing but we’ll never be able to enjoy it without thinking of Blue. This is new to me and you’re a bit rusty but clearly sooooooooo talented. I guess it’ll make you think of Jenna but I imagine fondly.” Gervais says.
“Yeah. I was worried that climbing might trigger a panic for you, not having Blue there. As long as we have time it’ll be fun. I want to keep going to the gaming too, just as a way to zonk out.” Robin says.
“And because you really, really liked that girl Candice.” Gervais says.
“I really did. We have a date this weekend. And did Jeremy give you his number?” Robin asks.
“He did but I am not interested.” Gervais blushes.
“Oh I forgot, I heard from Antonio earlier. He and Tyler are staying out east. Their show is going to Broadway in the spring so they’ve deferred coming back for a year, the current run has extended for a couple of weeks which is why they can’t come back for a semester.” Robin says.
“Oh I’m so pleased for them. I saw the reviews were strong. That is spring break sorted.” Gervais grins.
“Oh for sure! Maybe just us? Not a big group thing.” Robin says.
“That’s not like you. Its me who usually wants the small group.” Gervais grins.
“I am tired of all the drama when you lot are together. This summer being just me and Blue in the main was awesome. I bet your summer was helped just having a few people around.” Robin says.
“We’re growing up.” Gervais grins.
“Has Clara called back yet?” Andy asks Chris in bed.
“No. She didn’t answer when Bea and I rang for our weekly chat even. Has Roe said anything?” Chris asks.
“No. Nor Katelyn. I can’t believe he just took off without saying anything. You two were just becoming proper friends and he’s gone.” Andy says.
“Not good enough friends for him to tell me he was dropping out of college and running off with a massive amount of money.” Chris says.
“You care about the money?” Andy asks.
“It feels like someone else ripping momma off.” Chris says.
“She bought him something and he’s selling it. Once she gave it it was his to do what he wanted with. He could have sold the car and given me half the money but he didn’t. He needs the money, he has a plan.” Andy says.
“He can’t start a vineyard on the money he’ll get for the house, if it sells.” Chris says.
“No but maybe he has another plan. I’m just worried then next we hear of him will be his funeral.” Andy says.
“He’ll be fine. Like you said he has a plan. A rash one maybe. I’d have expected him to have a goodbye dinner, even if he hadn’t told us that was what it was.” Chris says.
“Give me some lovin’.” Chris says wanting to distract Andy from his funk, sex or food always work.
Spence lies in bed alone and wonders what happened to his life. How did he end up single and alone? How did his crush on Will splinter his friendships? Why is nothing going right. School is boring, the gym have only given him 1 class a week and the other gyms are yet to get back to him. Maybe Will has blackballed him in this town.
Why did he give up on Andy? Why is Andy choosing Chris, a known liar who tried to hurt their friends, who causes chaos, who sued his own parents, why is he a better choice than Spence?
How can he get back on track?