Ocean Blue 37

Blue, Bea and Chris talk all night. Any jealousy and animosity has fallen away. They share everything from their time apart and speculate over the now and the future.

“You could come to the lake, you know I understand why you didn’t, but now you have Larryand Gervais I don’t see why you couldn’t come and settle. Buy a farm.” Bea says

“I want Chris to go to vet school. He is so ready but there is nowhere near the lake he could do it. After he has qualified then sure we could.” Blue says.

“No we couldn’t. There is no life for you there. The community café won’t sustain you and it isn’t the right climate for wine.” Chris says.

“So I’ll grow apples and we make hard cider” Blue grins.

“And I’ll feed the by-products to the animals. Retired farm animals and rescues.” Chris says with a grin.

“Not much for Gervais though. I mean he can help run a kids program at the retreat but he needs something more to do than look after me.” Blue says

“I guess I can’t decide for Larry either. So weird that they sent you here and are keeping us away from our men.” Chris says

“Do you think something has happened to momma?” Blue asks

“I don’t think so. I would have heard before them.” Bea says

“Maybe dad has broken out of prison.” Chris laughs

“It has to be something of that level. I am worried about ocean, after that Adam kid targeted him.” Blue says quietly putting his biggest fear into words

“Blue no, why would they keep Larry and Gervais away if it’s that?” Chris says his mood dropping.

“No one would hurt that kid, his sunshine personality would stop everyone in their tracks.” Bea says.

“Other than momma no one but Ocean means so much to all three of us.” Blue says.

“Shit, that’s true.” Bea says and brushes away an angry tear.

“I’ll kill anyone who hurts him.” Chris says.

“And end up in jail with your mob family?” Blue asks frustrated and Chris snarls.

Ocean wakes while it is still dark, too cold to sleep more and decides to try and build a fire. He really hopes he doesn’t have another night out here. It has rained overnight and his blankets are wet. He finds enough dry material, moves to a small clearing and gets to work getting a spark. Feeling so glad he knows how.

He lies the blankets out to dry them and strips off his damp outer layer. He needs everything to dry out so his bag isn’t too heavy for the walk ahead. He is soon pink and as the sun begins He actually naps a little infront the flames and wakes up feeling pink and toasty as the sun begins to rise.

His things are dry enough so he packs up and gets walking again. Hoping today is the day he gets to safety. Sleeping outside with no tent is no fun in this weather.

Ocean walks and walks and walks. He s tops to eat and stretch, thankful he is in such good shape. He tapes up a blister on his little toe and hopes his old sneakers don’t develop any holes before he gets to safety.

Ocean thinks a lot as he walks. He thinks about Garrett and how well things have been going. Garrett is someone he can see himself with for a long time. He feels like he has again what he had with Jane before that went wrong. Of course Garrett has high ambitions and Ocean knows they will be tough to support.

This makes him think of Blue and Will and how they were before they lost each other. He’d give anything to see Blue walking towards him right now but at the same time hopes he hasn’t done anything stupid.

Ocean hopes this will be the end of everything that the mobsters making their move will expose them and Blue and Chris can be free. He needs them in his life. He knew he missed Blue but not just how much until they had the day fishing together. Blue as a shell of himself was still his calm wise friend and Ocean needs him back in his life full time.

Ocean understands how Blue lost himself, being alone like this is draining. He cannot imagine how Blue and Chris managed years and years of this. Never being able to pick up the phone and talk to anyone, friends or family must have been hell. Only ever having small talk, nothing more than the weather or how they take their coffee. Ocean’s heart breaks again for them.

He has to get back in one piece, he cannot put his friends and family through losing someone else. Spurred on Ocean ups his pace and strides on determined.

The night before Andy, Spence, Robin, will, Larry and Gervais stayed up late talking.

“How are things going with the kids?” Gervais asks.

“I’m not fighting for them.Aled has explained alot and I get why he did it. They were never my kids and I can’t put them through any pain. I will keep in contact and if want to see me, visit during school breaks or whatever then they can.” Will says they sadly.

“You need to show them you fought what if their grandparents die? You can’t put contact up to them.” Gervais says angrily.

“I can’t put them through a legal fight. Neither Aled or I can afford major legal bills, we’re working it out. Their grandparents are not old, they are loved and cared for. Aled is transitioning to a desk job and will be there for them a lot more.” Will says.

“How about you Robin?” Larry asks.

“Ella is still being obstructive so as you’ve seen Mike is bypassing her and while I’ll never be dad I will be in his life. Maybe down the road he’ll get to know. This way I think is safer from her poisoning him against me. Though if she and Mike divorce then it would change.” Robin says.

“I hope they do and soon, I can’t look at dad while he’s still with her.” Larry says.

“He has no idea that he almost lost you for good.” Gervais says.

“Actually he had suspicions. He came in as I was talking to you and Blue and I switched off but I was never sure that he didn’t see. He demanded to know what was going on and I kept the party line. He really had no idea that Ella was fooling him with the kid. He still loves her though. He will choose her over you.” Robin says bluntly.

“He already did. The second he let her touch my things, she burned my baby book and he married her. The emotion of this situation made me think I could forgive him and move on but I can’t. Spending time with Blue and Chris, seeing them get over all that has gone between them. I know I don’t have it in me to put in the work they have. I don’t have Blue’s capacity for forgiveness. Even he struggles and throws it all in Chris’s face at times. Dad has said sorry and done nothing to make thing up to me. Tad was always his favourite and it was okay because mom knew it and made me feel special. I’m still in last place, only there are 2 more kids and Ella ahead of me on the list now.” Larry says angrily.

“Blue is a dumb fuck for forgiving Chris. Mike is a good guy, someone worth forgiving. Chris is a shit and always will be.” Andy snorts.

“He has changed. I have changed. Do you think Blue is dumb for forgiving me and giving me another shot?” Gervais asks.

“In a way, yeah. You’re going to screw him over eventually. I love you together but you are a fuck up.” Andy shrugs.

“If anyone is a dumb fuck for forgiving someone it is me.” Spence says getting up and leaving.

“Babe come on.” Andy calls out running after his husband.

“What is going on with them?” Will asks.

“Andy has been a dick ever since Blue came back.” Gervais shrugs.

“Spence should drop him.” Robin says.

“Nah, they have a strong bond, strong love. Noting will split them apart, not now.” Will says.

“You and Blue ended.” Robin says.

“And I will always regret not waiting. With Aled and the kids gone I have nothing to stay here for.” Will says.

“I’m sorry we can’t both win.” Gervais says.

“You had faith in him, you waited. You deserve to win.” Will says sadly.

“He might yet wake up. We already broke up once.” Gervais says.

“Did you cheat?” Robin asks.

“No, fuck no, I would never. I went too fast and I didn’t treat him gently enough. He was always so strong, but you know how delicate he can get when he feels the world is against him.” Gervais says.

“I certainly do.” Robin grins.

“You better shape up. I am trusting you to be all he deserves. I will step in if you’re not up to it. I can treat him right and I would give anything for one more day with him.” Will says.

“What happened to standing back and letting us find our feet?” Gervais asks.

“You already fucked up. Birch says that Blue is a total mess and you are not helping.” Will says.

“Well Birch exposed him and let people know who Blue was being totally indiscreet.” Larry says.

“Fact is we might never see him again. If anything has happened to Ocean, if he isn’t okay then there is no way we will ever see Blue or Chris again.” Gervais says falling into sobs, the worry over Ocean and stress of being away from Blue is just too much.

“Come on, getting sick and stressing isn’t helping either of them. Lets get to bed.” Robin says gently. He has no idea if he should be on Gervais or Will’s side in this, all he knows is Blue should be the one to choose.

“I miss them. I even miss Chris.” Gervais says as he climbs into bed with Robin.

“They need you strong and together. Ocean is going to need a lot of protecting, a lot of love. You can’t go into hiding with Blue when Ocean gets back. You need to be there for him.” Robin says gently.

“Blue needs me more.” Gervais says.

“Blue needs someone. Ocean will need you.” Robin says.

132 thoughts on “Ocean Blue 37

  1. Sam you were right telling me to take it slow. Danny is actually very possessive now that we’re talking again. he got mad because I told him I was sick. Any advice should I give up trying to get back with him?

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    1. Honestly to me you cheated because it was going too fast before, you want a relationship so much and were sacrificing your gut feelings and sense to have it then rebelled or something to escape. Do you really, really like him? Is he a good guy for you right now? Or is he a cute guy who wants you, and that’s flattering enough to overlook the rest?
      I know you want a boyfriend and the chance to be a good boyfriend. You just need to decide if his foibles and baggage are worth dealing with or not.

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      1. First off if don’t don’t already have one get a degree for psychology you deserve one. The things I liked about him was he was classy and witty. He is a devoted father. I guess maybe I was in love with the idea of him not him himself. Right now my gut feeling is to let him down gently that I’m still not ready for a relationship. It was like he was a life preserver keeping me from drowning in depression and that blinded me. Damn Sam you could give Dr. Phil a run for his money thanks😘😘😘😘

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        1. Maybe he’s the sort of guy you think you should be with. You know you’ve work to do. I know you’ll be a kick arse boyfriend when you meet the right guy. It’s just hard, not many out there, especially when you live where you do.

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  2. What do we have here? A bunch of Hypocrits considering how Andy and Co have treated Blue at times and they are treating Blue like a lil kid thinking its their decision who gets to be part of Blue of Blue life and Blue does not get to decide.

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          1. You know you can’t be replaced 😘😘😘😘😘

            In the story I like the bros with Gervais and Larry….. Hope Larry does not reunite with Mike he chose a bitch over his son nothing can undo that damage and he has to live with it

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  3. I think it’s time for Andy to be tied up and let everyone in the house fuck him. HE needs a quick reminder he ain’t all that. What’s wrong with that boy? He’s better than that.

    Just had a cold chill go through me….what if G and Will are both lonely and needy and get together? 😮😳

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  4. UH UH Andy UH UHHHH. Don’t run after him like that. He knew what he was getting into before he said I DO. Everybody knows Andy has a big appetite and not just for food okeh.

    He set himself up for that Spence stomp off though. He has no right to talk about anyyboddyy in terms of fuck ups lol. I still love you though Andykins ❤

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      1. Hell no! Blue needs a pet project! Picking up the prices of Will would be so dreamy, and I’d love see Gervais hurt!

        (I’m rereading the suite saga (92 so far) and I’m hating Gervais extra hard lol)

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          1. Fergus just showed up, and birch is massaging Blue.

            I hate knowing what’s going to come up between birch and blue. Why couldn’t I have gotten amnesia, damnit!

            I’m reading another series too, and they get mixed up at times, so I keep waiting for some German torture porn to pop up in you’re writing lol.

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              1. An embarrassment of riches (the public exposure gets my rocks off. Especially the tailor chapter.)

                It is what it is (I like the sports sides of the stories. I kind of learnt what football is from it lol)

                We will remember them (It took for awhile to get into it, but I love the Texan setting and my head gets stuck into it)

                Society boys (one of my fav ones to jerk to. I’m pretty sure I’m in love with one of the characters too lol)

                As you can tell, Im not coping with being home bound :p

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                    1. Ugh. Im not sure what shit went down, but I know that looking for work is worse than plucking pubes individually.

                      If you need a chat or anything, hit me up. I’m drinking from about 10:00am onwards, so I’m always keen for a Skype. 😛

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                    1. Thank god some one else thinks thats who he is took the. Alex is so damn cute. It made me cry when he broke up with Justin. Forresyt is breaking hilarious how he went from curious to princess twinkalicious after a night with Alex and Justin. Blake kinda does have that rapist vibe for a 13 year old! I cried for an hour when Alex said he had cancer

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                    2. Yeah my gut dropped when I read that. I died when Justin lost his memory too, although I loved getting to see the other side of Jake.

                      And maybe we shouldn’t be talking about this on here. I feel dirty, cheating on Mr. Bambam.

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                    3. Haha I was actually tempted to get a Quote tattoo for shits and giggles. I was gonna plan a trip to Canada to check it out, but then I checked what the weather is like and I changed my mind. As much as I think I’m a winter person, Ive never seen real snow, and I don’t tolerate cold that much lol

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                    4. I’d like the cold more. It was funny one of my high school teachers was from Minnesota and it was like 40 degrees and he was wearing short sleeves and saying it wasn’t cold

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                    5. As a western New Yorker I have to say there is not a thing wrong with snow. Nothing better than being snowed in as a lake effect storm dumps feet on your house. On the upside I can spit into Canada if I want to. 🇨🇦

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                    6. I have a friend in Rochester and her snow pics make me stressed each year. Over here we just don’t have the equipment to deal with it so we all freak out and give up trying to go to work.

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                1. I have tried society boys but gave up. My faves are Logan, Morning Star and Jay and Miles right now. Cheddars is a close second. Westley and Seamus is good too😙

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                  1. I love the idea of Tyler too. Ive always had a soft spot for that straight dick. 😉

                    Miles is super hot in my mind too, but I almost cried when his head was shaved. I think the kid in a kilt at the school is a riot too.

                    And the double massage scenes… Man I get hard just thinking about them.

                    There was this bloke that I used to get cheap massages from, and he was the first bloke to give me a prostate only orgasm. If he didn’t resemble a gnarled oak tree and smelled like boiled cabbage, I would have married him on the spot right then.

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    1. YES TEAM WILL!! Let’s be honest Sam is totally right, blue need someone not him specifically. Will would perfect for blue since they’re both healing from things that were out of their hands. At least give me the threesome with robin and will. Also could we get ocean back to safety asap, i still imagine him as a little boy running around the farm

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  5. Thanks for the chapter Sam. Hope you are feeling better. Can I be the first to suggest Spence and Will as a couple. Both want a monogamous relationship and a family. Aled and Andy sound perfect for each other too.

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      1. Spence definitely deserves better. Hearing Andy talk to G about how B shouldn’t forgive him made me ill. Other than with Fergus G has just made some bad choices but all to help Blue, at least in his mind. Jessie was so B could make a move with Birch and Spence was to get him to back off Will so B and W could get together. Andy has spread outright lies about our boy.

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                1. I can’t help it. I am a romantic at heart. If two characters are introduced at the start of a story I end up hoping they are together at the end after all the trials. That’s why I loved and hated the hockey boys.

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                    1. Love you also 😘😘😘😘😘😘

                      Look how i always believed Chris could be redeemed in time and the brothers could develop a propper twin relationship 🙂

                      Altho Lana and the Mobsters can’t be redeemed IMO

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                    2. true has she realised over the years how much she misses the twins remember when she was younger always tried to take what they had and have them cut out of picture lol

                      Or is it more maturity or good therapist since she is 30 now?

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                    3. She’s not 30 yet. I think they’re 28. Will is 30 or almost. I think she knows they’ve had it harder than her and she’s mostly happy and so can afford to be generous

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                    4. I love a few chaptets back with the wedding game the twins were playing where they were describing their imaginary weddings down to what foods etc they will be eating it was cute 😘😘😘😘😘

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  6. Sam… thanks so much for the weekend chapter.

    In the poll I voted that I just want Blue to be happy. Still do. Andy… uggg. Ocean… love that kid!

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  7. I don’t think Robin is in any place to say who needs who. Will is being an ass one second he says that Gervais should be with Blue and the next its like he’s going to try and muscle in and take blue back after hearing about the one little breakup. But not as big as Andy. I don’t know what the hell his problem is. Blue is actually in a better place than some people give him credit for. I hate to say this but Blue needs Gervais in a family capacity right now. Maybe after all this mess they can get back together intimately. Let’s be honest the only real family Blue has is Gervais and Ocean and to a extent Spence. I’m sorry I’m rambling in bed with stomach flu makes me extra bitchy. Guess I should have taken my own advice about the vegetables eh Sam😉

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    1. Robin is pointing out that Gervais is essentially Ocean’s dad these days and so he has to be there to see Ocean through this. Blue has people fighting to be there for him.
      We’ll see what happens, what Blue’s options are. I don’t think Blue is interested in Will, and really won’t be if he gives up on those kids, even though that makes it easier for them to be together.

      Hope you get better soon. I feel like shit but the rugby was just on and no one has better arses.

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      1. I have to disagree I’d say the best arses are those football players. Running around in those shorts, genitalia accidentally sneaking out giving us a little peek. Whew I don’t think the fevers the only thing getting me hot now.

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